Serendipity

where i've been

2011-11-02T10:15:00.000-07:00

I never dreamed life could move so swiftly. Every year it seems time flies faster and yet we all know that simply isn't true.

So where to begin...with the husband or the kids?

The husband.

He came first :D This month we'll celebrate our 20th Anniversary. The traditional gift is China but the modern gift is Platinum and I think I like that better. It's one of the rarest elements in the earth's crust. A precious gray-white metal. Platinum is generally non-reactive and exhibits a remarkable resistance to corrosion, even at high temperatures. I think we all know where I'm going with this.

Love isn't always easy and I'd have to say that this time in our lives, early 40's, one pre-teen and two teenagers in the house, doesn't leave a lot of time for us. Sometimes I look at Russ and see a stranger other times I just wish we were both 17 again and could stay like that forever. We were actually in our early 20's when we met, but there's just something about 17 that's magical. Can you imagine 17 with the wisdom of the aged? How much would you accomplish?

My point is that you hit 20 years of marriage and it doesn't seem possible that that many years have passed by. You realize you've been with this person longer then you were with your parents and does that seem possible? What will the next 20 years bring? My goodness, our kids will be married with children of their own who could quite possibly be the age our kids are now. Let's not think about that!

The kids.

Wenatchee Valley College

Logan is thriving at WVC (running start) and WHS. He ran cross country for the health benefits, he's a member of the Junior Student Senate, FBLA, Knowledge Bowl, and Honor Society. Recently a rumor begun circulating that the kid smokes pot...REALLY? The rumor's on it's way out, I hope. He recently became a Priest and can now bless the sacrament. He's going to the Spokane Temple this weekend to do baptisms and has received the go ahead to get his patriarchal blessing. His seminary teacher spoke with us Sunday and expressed how AMAZING he is, ending with, "You must be so incredibly proud of him!" We are!!!

Brooklynn seems to grow taller and wiser almost daily. She excels in school and seems to have a remarkable ability to see the end from the beginning. I've been blown away a few times by her wisdom and it seems like she should be turning 20 instead of 14. She still loves drawing and seems to be focusing on clothing. Which is interesting since she has a difficult time finding anything she wants to wear. Maybe she'll design her own clothes someday. She's been making paracord bracelets. Remember the young man from memorial weekend? His picture hangs on her wall and the roses he gave her last week are drying in her window. I catch her smiling at her ipod when she's texting and ask, "Who you talkin' to B?" Of course I already know her answer, but when she says his name there's a certain something in her voice that is just so sweet to hear. She's going to the temple this weekend to do baptisms.

Jaxsen finished tennis and loved it. He's adjusting to OMS and has made some good friends. His siblings are so busy sometimes I feel like he's getting lost in the shuffle. He's a good sport though and fortunately Logan and Brooklynn's friends are kind to him. He became a Deacon and can now pass the sacrament. He still loves to read. He's going to the temple this weekend, for the first time, to do baptisms.

Me.

I just feel so blessed. I'm so grateful for family and good friends. I'm so grateful for the gospel of Jesus Christ. Today I'll be clearing names for temple work and making rolls for sandwiches this weekend. This will be the first time our whole family will be in the temple together. Family, that's what it's all about, that's what it's always been about and always will be about. Temples, where love and forever unite <3

What I've read:

Ballad: A Gathering of Faerie

Thirteen Reasons Why

Die For Me - Loved it!!!

Silence - I love Patch :D

The Iron Witch

Currently Reading:

The Power of Six

Next Up:

CROSSED - Brooklynn and I are so dang EXCITED!!!

memorial day

2011-09-05T22:55:00.000-07:00

Everyone went every which way today.

Logan went to Chelan, with the Bucknum Family.

Jet skiing on the wakes of a ferry, an hour long drive on the Stehekin, going 50mph. Barefoot, shirtless, and in nothing but their swim trunks, Logan and Jordan returned the rented jet ski and found the dining hall had just closed. Encouraged to get a bite to eat while waiting for the rest of the family to catch up by boat traveling at half their speed, they walked a mile in the direction they were told food would be available. Arriving at the highway they determined the woman who gave them directions pointed the wrong way. The two boys turned around, walked the mile back and then another mile in the other direction only to find from a native that they were still a mile shy of their food goal. Pushing forward, still armed with Debbie's credit card, they found a pizza joint. Realizing the rest of their party was getting close they turned their intention toward ordering for the family. Upon reaching the front door they were met with the sign "No Shirt, No Shoes, No Service" tired and hungry they ducked into a Shell station for corn dogs and chips. The crew arrived finding the boys sitting on the curb downing the last of their chips. Retrieving their shirts and flip flops from the van they passed on the pizza and opted for sleep instead. Logan came home deeply bronzed, with blushed cheeks and wind blown hair. The soles of his feet were black. His blue eyes bright and a smile played on his lips as he recounted the fun-filled adventures of the day and his new love of jet skiing.

Russ and Jax went boating, on the Columbia River, with the Butcherite Family.

Brooklynn and I picked up one of her friends and brought him back to our house. While they worked on a project for English, that's due tomorrow, I made this

Ultimate Chocolate Chip Cookie n’ Oreo Fudge Brownie Bar

Jen's sister, Amy, pinned this pic to one of her boards on Pinterest. I followed the link to the blog Kevin {&} Amanda. Not only is the picture mouth wateringly perfect, but the recipe is divine. The Butcherite's are coming over to BBQ some chicken, eat some romain lettuce tossed with cucumbers and strawberries, devour some french bread and watermelon. This is what's for dessert.

Brooklynn's friend, Coyle, tried a piece before he headed home to let me know if it turned out. He said, "...one word, AMAZING!" I believe him!!!

I haven't stopped reading.

S'alright. I'll read SURRENDER

That said...the next book will be about different characters. I hate it when authors do this. Rather then wait one year to find out what I want to know I have to wait two! Truthfully, it makes me a bit frustrated :/ It's on my 'not-to-do' list if I ever write a trilogy.

Eh...it was alright, I'll read UNFORSAKEN

Loved it!

I purposely put off reading UNCOMMON CRIMINALS by Ally Carter and read some books that I didn't know if I would like or love first. I do this with food too. I always save the best bite for last, and sometimes my husband comes along and takes it right off my plate leaving me feeling deprived and frustrated, but that's another post.

Anyway, I was glad I held out. I love Ally's style, she's witty and smart, and gives you something to think about. Now I just have to get through another year 'til the next installment comes out. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can....

Loved it too!

DIVERGENT. Loved it, but I already said that. INSURGENT is due out around May 2012 and I am looking forward to it!

2011-08-09T17:02:00.000-07:00

Logan's Facebook Status: I miss EFY :(

Logan's home, and as you can see, he seemingly had a good time. He roomed with Alan, the guy in the orange T-shirt, his friend who had double duty as his nurse maid. His counselor, the guy in the royal blue shirt, far left, they nicknamed Woody, after the Toy Story cowboy we all know and love.

Tuesday, Logan went to see the bone specialist who announced he didn't have a fracture, but that the trauma to the area was extensive and the splint 'n sling were absolutely the right things to be wearing. He's been released from their bondage and is walking around on cloud 9 as he finds himself back in the drivers seat.

On Logan's goal sheet for the week: Unbreak my arm. Which, apparently, he did, so to speak :D

Finished

I decided to read ONE DAY because the movie was coming out... I so love Anne Hathaway ... and I thought it a great chick flick to see with my very best girlfriend, but I'm sad to say that there's no way I can see the movie after reading the book. Unless they change the ending. Then, maybe, I could be talked into it.

As for reading the book...be warned...the f-word is used a lot and I could have done without reading about Dexter's escapades. I suppose, for me, the lifestyle is so far removed from my own that I just felt terribly sad throughout the whole of it, and once I finally received a ray of hope, of sunshine, it was ripped away senselessly. I suppose the author thought, "Such is life", but I simply felt the worse for having read it, not the better.

Should I read it?

Perhaps THE HELP would be a better movie choice. Also a book. It's been on my to-read list for awhile.

Finished 1-2-3

THE FORBIDDEN GAME was an interesting trilogy in that I actually wanted the "bad guy" to get the girl. NEVER before have I wanted it as much as I did in these books. In fact, never before have I ever even wanted it at all. To the point I had to question myself over-and-over as to why. I go back and forth between what I think of the trilogy three stars or two and still I sit undecided. I would love the author to write another and give me what I want just so I can feel what I can't explain.

Perhaps it's because Jenny and Julian have chemistry and Jenny and Tom have ordinary and who wants that, ordinary, when you can have extraordinary? My favorite part of the whole trilogy was when Julian thought Jenny died and she saw in him what she could love....

Interestingly, I just realized L.J. Smith is also the author of THE VAMPIRE DIARIES which is on my to-read list and a television show I delight in watching even though I know I shouldn't. I can quite admit to loving the Salvatore Brothers, both of them!!!

Vampires Werewolves Hybrids Witches ...and Ghosts

September 15th is almost here

today

2011-08-04T12:05:00.000-07:00

Logan's away. He's at the University of Puget Sound for EFY (Especially For Youth), which he didn't want to especially go to. Add a fractured radial head in a cross country accident, three days before take off, a splint that runs from his hand to his shoulder, a sling, minus participation in any of the physical activities, plus being a 16 year old male, and the sum total looks grim.

While I have every reason to believe that he can make the best of a bad situation I find myself wondering what he'll choose to do. So filled with potential, a light on a black night, yet so damaged and broken inside.

My mother always refers to him as a Knight in Shining Armor. Part of what makes them shine is the character they build when they go through dark times and manage to come out on the other side.

I miss him.

***

Just before Logan left he got us started on a BBC television series, SHERLOCK. LOVE IT!!! The show is 90 minutes long, but there are less episodes in a season. The 21st Century adventures really are thrilling and funny, totally worth watching.

***

Jen's in Utah.

I called her this morning because I just wanted to hear her voice. I could hear her smiling and that made me smile too.

When she gets back I think we need to go see One Day with Anne Hathaway and Jim Sturgess. Twenty years. Two people... an epic romance... It all spells chick flick and we're both die hards for that!

The question is, "Should I read the book before seeing it?" Speaking of books...

Should I?

Finished

waiting...waiting...waiting

Finished

I loved the ending of Shiver sooo much that I thought I'd read THE DARK AND HOLLOW PLACES before continuing the trilogy, because I knew things were going to change...

Finished

...and they did. I thought I would stop after LINGER, but I just couldn't... I had to know if I was right in thinking I knew what I thought would be true of the end...

Finished

...forever.

summer reads

2011-07-31T18:02:00.000-07:00

While I've been away, I've still been reading. Time to play catch up :D

Finished June 14

I love Cassandra Clare! Some might call her wordy, but I think the difference between Cassandra and wordy authors is that her descriptions add to the full experience rather than acting as filler. Cassandra paints much more than a picture with her words, she creates a vivid screen filled with motion which adds to the overall emotional experience of her books.

Finished June 15

YAY!!! Enough said. I have, waiting for me to listen, CITY OF FALLEN ANGELS. The first of three that will follow CITY OF GLASS. I've decided that I don't do well having to wait an entire year to find out what happens next, let alone two years until there will be a resolve to the chaos I'm sure to unfold. Call me crazy, but I'm waiting to begin listening. I'm waiting to begin until a few months before the third comes out. For now, I shall be satisfied in my happy place. I'm just not ready to give up my joy!

Finished June 20

My honey saw this book and said, "Wow, that's a big book. So many words." It was a big book, a big book that ended a great trilogy. I'm looking forward to reading THE ALLOY OF LAW set 341 years after THE HERO OF AGES. THE ALLOY OF LAW will be released November 7, 2011.

Finished June 27

I enjoyed it enough to see where it goes in the future.

Finished June 27

LOVED IT!!! I read it, Russ read it, Logan read it. ENCLAVE is a must read for anyone who enjoyed THE HUNGER GAMES (can't wait for the movie) and/or THE MAZE RUNNER (excited for THE DEATH CURE to be released October 11, 2011 -- just around the corner). I love the action, love the characters, and am looking forward to the next book, OUTPOST!!!

Finished June 30

I liked it...a satisfying ending. I love it when authors share their musical inspirations. Lisa Mangum shares hers here.

Finished July 3

I cried, but even through the tears I was able to smile. That's saying something. Thank you Lou for providing sweet with the bitter in BLUE. I would love to read more of this story.

Finished July 5

My husband was totally surprised I loved ENCLAVE and if he knew that I enjoyed THE FOREST OF HANDS AND TEETH, by Carrie Ryan, I think he'd be even more shocked. The dead are walking and mooooaaaannnninnnngggg.... So glad her honey, JP, took her to see a zombie movie one day and that she consented to go even though she had sworn off all things horror in 1983.

Finished July 14

I was worried, worried that I wouldn't find out what happened to Mary. Would never know what became of those in the Forrest. I was okay with how she handled it all. I didn't think I would be, but I was. Her third book, THE DARK AND HOLLOW PLACES, arrived in my mailbox two days ago. It's next up on my "to-read" list. I think the hardest part of Carrie's stories are that she has no problem killing off people I come to love. Maybe she does, maybe she sheds a tear for them, maybe her heart skips knowing her readers are going to cringe and their hearts are going to drop into their stomachs. One thing's for sure I don't get nearly enough oxygen from the time I start to the time I finish. It's a race from the first word to the last.

Finished July 20

It was okay, but I'm ready for it to be over. Which is a shame because really quite enjoyed the first. So I made a decision, one I've never made before...

Skipped

...I skipped the third book. Yes you read it right, skipped it. I always have to finish what I start, but it just keeps going on-and-on-and-on.

Finished July 25

Glad I skipped the third, rushed through the fourth.

Finished July 27

Well, this was interesting. I had almost more questions at the end then I did throughout the series. I think final books should be final, meaning I'm not left wondering why a certain main character does and says a certain something. Maybe it's me, but I would have preferred she had skipped the third, combined the fourth and fifth, written the sixth as the third and then a fourth to take us on a new journey.

Finished July 28

I was really looking forward to this book. I really liked FALLEN, I really did. TORMENT was good. I had high hopes for PASSION and I was especially looking forward to it after THE IMMORTALS. It was off to a good start, and then enters a gargoyle. A gargoyle, really? It's not so much as to what the gargoyle represents, but that the form is a gargoyle, who speaks out of character. The sad thing is this book had so many possibilities, it could have been sooooo much better. Lauren had some great ideas and I loved the traveling component, but to what end? This series is going to continue and I just don't know if I can keep going. I probably will, but I hope the next one is as good as the first.

Finished July 30

After a string of reads that just weren't doing it for me, I was worried. What to read next? I was going to go with SHIVER, by Maggie Stiefvater, but since I didn't get my angel fix satisfied I decided to give HUSH, HUSH, by Becca Fitzpatrick, a shot. I didn't have high hopes, but was pleasantly surprised. I laughed, which I sorely needed, and found myself enjoying the danger and being reminded of just how much I love those bad boys! What is it about them? Their ability to push away and pull close in the same sentence. Gotta love 'em!

Reading

I'm 1/4 of the way through and can't wait 'til I can read some more this evening. The third and final book SILENCE will be out October 4, 2011 and I've already programmed my ipad to alert me! I'm also looking forward to finding a copy of

Kiss Me Deadly: 13 Tales of Paranormal Love

A short story collection aiming to satisfy every werewolf, ghost, fallen angel, zombie, and shape-shifter’s dark desires.

Authors include: Becca Fitzpatrick, Caitlin Kittredge, Karen Mahoney, Justine Musk, Daniel Marks, Diana Peterfreund, Sarah Rees Brennan, Michelle Rowen, Carrie Ryan, Maggie Stiefvater, Rachel Vincent, Daniel Waters, Michelle Zink

Happy Reading Everyone!!! If you love it as much as I do I recommend Goodreads.com my favorite place to keep track of what I read and find new books to love :D

concert checklist

2011-07-05T16:13:00.000-07:00

Ohhh, it's been sooo long! I've missed blogging and I've a lot to catch up on, but I'm diverging from my norm and doing something a little different today.

This is Matt

I'm cleaning house! I often clean house so this is nothing new, but today I found myself sorting through piles of papers on the computer desk and I stumbled over a concert checklist that my oldest was given by his friend Matt. Matt's an extraordinary guy who has introduced Logan to a wide variety of music old and new. There have been times when I've not been as grateful for the introduction as others. However, for the most part, I've dealt. I even discovered that there's some music I wish I'd not missed out on in my day.

This is Ozzy & Slash

Just before Super Bowl 2011 (Pittsburgh Steelers Vs. Green Bay Packers), Ozzy and Slash were in Seattle. The boys had tickets months in advance and Logan was off to his first concert, ever, with an overnight stay in Seattle (Yes, there was adult supervision, Matt's mom). Matt, being the good friend that he is wanted to make sure Logan was prepared to experience the concert without a hitch and provided him with a CONCERT CHECKLIST. I can never bring myself to throw the thing out. I think I've read it at least 10 times!

So, today is the day it gets chucked, but before it does I'm going to record it here for posterity sake :D

Concert Checklist

Required Items:

Jeans

Belt

Charged and working cell phone

Tennis shoes/ Converse (NO SANDALS)

Closed-toe

Laces

Money (amount of your choice - will go towards food, drinks, miscellaneous merchandise, and concert merchandise)

Recommended amount: $100 minimum

Concert T-Shirst generally range from $35-$60 each

Concert Sweatshirts generally range from $40-$70

All other Concert Merchandise is extremely expensive - minimum $15 for albums, bandanas, etc.

Food/Drink at Concerts generally costs $10 minimum

A good estimate is to imagine a 200% markup increase to the general cost of the product

(so if the soda is normally $2, it will become $8; ect.

Recommended Items:

Water in car for after concert (HIGHLY RECOMMENDED)

Pain medication, such as Excedrin, Tylenol, Advil, etc. (HIGHLY RECOMMENDED)

Change of clothes (HIGHLY RECOMMENDED)

Toiletries (HIGHLY RECOMMENDED)

Cough drops / throat lozenges (HIGHLY RECOMMENDED)

Black Sabbath / Ozzy Osbourne /Slash/ Guns 'N Roses / Velvet Revolver shirt / other merchandise (HIGHLY RECOMMENDED - but can be purchased at concert)

Camera / video camera (HIGHLY RECOMMENDED - cell phone is perfect)

Food and drink for before/after concert

Cell phone charger

Sleeping bag, pillow, and/or blanket

iPod and headphones

Food and drink for car ride

Gum

Headband / armband / other ROCK N' ROLL items

Sunglasses / hat (for car ride)

Beanie (for car ride / non-concert experiences)

Sweatshirt / jacket

Key Points:

If you bring ANYTHING to the concert, make SURE you are able to keep an eye on it at ALL TIMES. Ozzy / Slash fans are not Slayer fans, however, bad things can still happen. You never know what is going to happen at a concert.

DO NOT accept ANY food, drinks, or substances from ANYONE else. Again, Ozzy / Slash fans are not Slayer fans, but you never know what could happen. They may have spike the drink; poisoned the food; laced the substance; etc.

If you need, you may keep items with my mother while at the Concert. Women's purses, if guarded as safely as hers (always attached to her body), are a GREAT place to store items that you want to keep safe.

To avoid "The Matt Incident" from happening to you (and from EVER happening again), WEAR A BELT AT ALL TIMES.

Keep your phone charged and with you. Having it off during either Slash's or Ozzy's performances is fine - but turn it on immediately after the Concert has ended - just in case we are separated, we need to regroup before departing.

Don't text while Slash or Ozzy is playing - it will distract you; it may be stolen or broken; etc. Also, it is offensive to Slash and Ozzy. DO NOT OFFEND THEM, THEY ARE AWESOME.

Have fun, and live for the moment - concerts are the greatest memories of my life. Make it that way for you, too. No matter what is happening (you are separated, you aren't having fun, the performance isn't spectacular, etc) always remember - mo matter WHAT happens, you will always have this memory, this experience. You will ALWAYS be able to say that you have seen Slash and Ozzy Osbourne. No one can take this from you. MAKE IT YOUR WORLD.

Front Line / Moshing Key Points:

The Front Line is the best area you can ever be at. It is in front of the Mosh Pit, and the closest you will ever get to Slash / Ozzy (unless you meet them in person). However, it comes with a price:

It is not a question, you WILL get hurt. You WILL get pushed. You WILL get bruised and sore.
You will be shoved ridiculously hard into the railing - you may find breathing difficult until you get the hang of it.
It is every man for himself - if you see an opening, take it by force. Do not be nice. There's a flipside - don't let anyone push you out because of an opening.
This. Is. War.

The Mosh Pit is fun, epic, and gives you the full experience of a Concert. However, a Mosh Pit is not the safest environment. Be prepared:

It is not a question, you WILL get hurt. You WILL get pushed. You WILL get bruised and sore.
Be as aggressive as you want - that's what a Mosh Pit is for. But, do NOT be docile or passive. If you don't like extreme physical contact, don't Mosh.
This. Is. War.
If you don't want to Mosh, do not Mosh. Stay with another member of our group, or with my mother. Moshing should ONLY be at your own choice. If you are having second thoughts, feel uncomfortable or unsafe, then don't Mosh.

*I can't chuck it, what am I saying? Let me sum up what I said to Logan on his way out the door.

1. Give your stuff to Matt's mom.

2. Stay out of the Mosh Pit. Promise me! I mean it!

3. Be safe and pay attention to what's going on around you.

4. Have FUN!

5. I LOVE YOU!!!

Those boys had the BEST time. They came home grinning from ear to ear, showing off their loot. Logan gets some good use out of his Ozzy Snuggie which is particularly useful on road trips. The guys have been to more concerts since and I have developed a deep love for the parents that accompany them!!!

patience

2011-06-01T13:11:00.000-07:00

Finished

I read it in less than a day, cause I couldn't put it down. I reread the end four times, yes, four. Okay, maybe five...I lost count.

Finished

Jaxsen finished before I even had the chance to start. He is disappointed that he now has to wait another year before he gets 'the rest of the story'. I must admit this feeling doesn't go away with age. I've started calendaring in the release dates of books I'm waiting for. I even set my ipad up to alert me the day before.

In the Mail

According to my library account CITY OF ASHES should be arriving in my mailbox today. Ohhhh I am giddy with JOY! Jax will be thrilled as well. I realize not all 11 year old boys read this series, but he really loved CITY OF BONES. I guess they've been trying to get the boy to check out library books at school. He told the librarian that he's already reading several series.

Jaxsen's Reading [at school]

The HALO series, the MAXIMUM RIDE series, THE MORTAL INSTRUMENTS series, and THE INFERNAL DEVICES series. His librarian asked him to write a list of what he was reading, maybe the principal would buy some of the books for their library. So I started writing them down.

"Mom, make sure to add THE MORTAL INSTRUMENTS."
"Ummm, Jax I'm not sure that series is appropriate for elementary age children. I mean I know you're reading them, but...well you know how Clary is in love with..."
"Her brother." He said grinning so big I had to try very hard not to laugh.
"Yeeesss, well I'm hoping somehow that's not quite the whole truth..."
"I know, I know, " he laughed. "They're probably not related...I hope."
"Me too!"

Then I added HEIST SOCIETY, which he really enjoyed and the GALLAGHER GIRLS series.

"Mom, why are you putting the GALLAGHER GIRLS on my list. I don't want to hand that to the librarian, those are girl books."
"Because girls use the library too and they might enjoy them."
"Well I don't want them on my list."
"Well there's girls in the other books you read."
"Ya, but there's lots of boys too."
"I think you'll be okay."
"Fine," he sighed.
"You know Jax, you should give them a try, you might like them."
"That's okay."

***

Russ is kicking butt on the house. Reinstalling molding and trim. I've been painting walls and washing all the dust away. I did stop for a little furniture rearranging in the living room. My children are tired of eating cold cereal and snacks. The other day Logan said, "Hey mom, remember when you use to read The Pioneer Woman's blog?"
"Ya"
"Well I think you should start doing that again," he said with a grin.
"Really?"
"Ya"
"Well, you're in luck, I was just thinking next week I might have a minute to do that very thing."

***

It is pouring out, pourrr-ing! The sky is grey in the west and blue in the east, and yet it's not particularly dark because the sun is out. I have an hour before I need to pick up Jaxsen.

the end is the beginning

2011-05-27T07:56:00.001-07:00

Life is crazy busy! The remodel is still in progress, the husband keeps saying there's so much to do, the kids are all running in different directions, but it's all good. The sun is shining, the flower beds are weeded. The new floor will be fully installed this weekend. The kitchen, family room and bathroom have been painted. The cabinets will be finished next Friday or Saturday. And in the midst of all the craziness I find time for the little things that make me happy.

Finished

In love with this book. Cassandra Clare is a marvel! I often, often, think of writing my own book, but when I read her work I always feel like I could never quite measure up. I'm listening for a second time.

Anxiously Awaiting - December 6, 2011

THE INFERNAL DEVICES is every bit as wonderful as THE MORTAL INSTRUMENTS! Which do I love more? I feel sooo torn!

Reading

I wasn't sure I liked the direction the 3rd book was going to take, but Brandon Sanderson is amazing and I'm quite pleased how the characters are evolving.

***

June 1978

For my tenth birthday my parents took me to see Superman, starring Christopher Reeve. I've been in love with the idea of him ever since.

Lois & Clark

Then came the series Lois & Clark. I loved that series too. But then came SMALLVILLE in 2001...

It's Over - The Longest Running Sci-Fi Series of All Time

Can I say I'm sad to see it end? I'm sad to see it end. I put off watching the last two episodes. In some way it wasn't over until I'd seen them, so if I didn't watch, well, you get the picture.

The Phone Booth

Oliver Queen - Green Arrow

Be still my heart! As much as I love the idea of Superman, I love Green Arrow -- I think it's that bad boy persona. You just want to love his broken pieces back together.

Oliver & Chloe

So glad they married those two. What a darling couple!

Jonathan & Martha Kent

Remember Dukes of Hazzard (1979-1985)? John Schneider still looks handsome as ever.

Clark & Lois

Lex - back for the finale

I've missed Lex. I was glad he came back for the finale. I would have preferred that he hadn't killed Tess. And I think a funeral would have been nice -- I mean really, she deserved some kind things said about her in the end, don't you think?

I think Brian Peterson, executive producer, said it best, "To be honest, I hope the way that we've ended the finale...leaves people satisfied...that it's not just an end it's a beginning." So, from one fans perspective, they left me wanting more and that's a hard place to be in, but I think they accomplished exactly what they set out to do. Well done!

***

The Secret Circle - NEW Thursday's This Fall

They're witches. I might give the show a go to fill my Smallville void. I haven't decided if I should read the book or be surprised.

I also have this series marked to read.

Vampire Diaries is a show as well. Maybe I'll start there and see where it goes....

***

Bones - Brennan & Booth

The season finale - what can I say? The season was heart wrenching near the end and I wondered if the writers would just add salt to the wound, but then they allowed us the joy of Angela & Hodgins new arrival and Brennan's news to Booth. I think I felt a little bit cheated, but then Booth smiled, my heart melted, and I shed a tear. I don't know what awaits us next season, but I hope it's a season filled with love. No, I don't mean that it's perfect, but that's when love is best, right? When it endures in the face of imperfection.

books, books, books, and more books

2011-05-18T20:57:00.000-07:00

Finished

The strong language is disappointing, I don't recommend listening to it. However, reading it might help one gloss over the swearing a bit easier. The story is well done. The characters well developed. It's emotional depth really quite beautiful, but due to the language, I won't be continuing the series.

Finished

Better than the first.

Finished

Just as good as the second.

Finished

My favorite in the Gallagher Girl Series, so far. I'm looking forward to the 5th.

***

Most of my kitchen cabinets are in. I say most because there was a measurement error and some had to be sent back, different sizes ordered. Two had to be ordered that without put an open oven door directly in front of the sink. This has not been a painless process. The sink moved so the faucet will not be centered under the sink, but off to the right.

Lack of symmetry has been known to drive me crazy.

I plan to balance the visual with something of beauty and similar height.

Today the formica goes down. The sink hole will be cut and Russ wil install the sink. The wash tub we've had the last month, and the nothingness we've had the last few days, will become a memory of the past.

Russ began laying the flooring Monday night. It looks great, but doesn't go down nearly as nicely as our previous floor. Both the old and the new are made by Armstrong. The new, American Duet - Hartford Maple, has wide and narrow planks. I love the look, but ~~hooking the narrow boards to the wide has proved challenging~~ after a call to Rebecca at Armstrong, who spoke with Joe (head of laminate), it seems that the locking system on the two different widths don't match up. We're going to have to have Columbia River Interiors reorder the wides.

ARGH!

The floor could be another 3-4 weeks out now.

I'm so grateful Russ is doing the work, he's become quite the Mr. Fix-It over the last 19 years. I can't believe it's been that long, seems like yesterday.

Today I should be able to begin loading up the cabinets that we do have in place. The kids are so excited to use silverware and glasses again. I can't wait to make a real meal! Jerry's here (the counter guy) gotta go!

***

The sanders going, dust is flying everywhere. The walls, the floor, the ceiling, talk about the work that will go into the deep cleaning. Which brings me to what I'll be listening to while I put our house back together.

CLOCKWORK ANGEL by Cassandra Clare. Unless, of course, CITY OF ASHES by Cassandra Clare shows up soon in my mailbox. I've been waiting, and waiting, and waiting.

a beautiful day

2011-05-05T14:38:00.001-07:00

A beautiful morning spent with even more beautiful friends. Jen and Camilla are going to be doing a designer interview and needed a pic. In exchange, I get to put some of their awesome creativeness into my home. They're the proud owners of Alphabet Garden Designs where they specialize in Vinyl Wall Lettering. My sincere congratulations to them on taking their dreams and turning them into reality. You two ROCK!!!

***

Finished

***

Dear Mom and Dad,

I wish you were hear it's a beautiful sight. The wind is gently blowing and it's suny and peacefull.

Love,

Jaxsen

5th Grade - Saddle Rock Hike

nesse

2011-05-04T17:19:00.000-07:00

Finished

***

Today, my good friend Marci added another beautiful baby girl to her family. I was privileged to care for her second born, Nesse. Is she not darling? Nessie loves pickles.

I brought my camera along 'cause this little girl just makes me smile every second I'm with her. I suggested she get ready for the day. Her new frilly swimsuit was not what I had in mind, but I couldn't say, "no".

She swirled and twirled, and finally came to rest on the floor. I couldn't help but snap away.

Nesse is the perfect subject. She just goes on being her busy, adorable, self without giving the camera a second thought.

Out of the swimsuit and into street clothes, the day beautiful and sunny, not too hot and too cold. Perfect.

Just right for swinging, walks, and enjoying the outdoors.

Perhaps the only thing as cute as this 'lil munchkin were the 'lil munchkin shoes strew around the yard.

I couldn't resist snappin' a few shots... irresistible.

Everything's always so much cuter when it's smaller.

Even the pink boot.... I think I could seriously collect children's shoes.

never let go

2011-05-01T22:57:00.000-07:00

"So Others May Live"

I watched THE GUARDIAN with Brooklynn.

I cried.

I thought beyond the movie. I thought about my role as a wife, mother, friend, sister, daughter, individual. I thought about my responsibility to those around me.

To those I love
To those I call friend
To those who cross my path

I've long held the belief we can choose to be Saviors among men. We, meaning all of us, have the ability to be the hands for Christ, the hands for good, no matter our religious affiliation. We can reach out and be the anchor for another in their time of need and sometimes, when they don't recognize they're drowning, we can reach in and grab another, hang on, and not let go.

I desire love, acceptance, forgiveness, and sometimes I inwardly desire praise. Sometimes I desire recognition. Desire it because I bought into the belief that recognition increases my value. When that desire surfaces, I fight it. I remind myself of what is important.

LESSON 1-What really matters?
Jake Fischer: What's your real number?
Ben Randall: 22.
Jake Fischer: 22? That's not bad. It's not 200 but...
Ben Randall: 22 is the number of people I lost, Jake. The only number I kept track of, the only number that was important to me.

LESSON 2-Take action.
[Ben has just rescued Jake and they are being hoisted up to the helicopter]
Jake Fischer: I thought you were going fishing!
Ben Randall: What do you call this?
[the cable starts to fray and Ben makes a snap decision - to unhook himself and fall so Jake will get up safely]
Jake Fischer: What are you doing? Don't even think about it!
Ben Randall: It's not gonna hold us both.

LESSON 3-Self sacrifice.
Jake Fischer: I won't let go!
[Ben understandingly says]
Ben Randall: I know.
[and unstraps his glove]

"There's a legend—of a man who lives beneath the sea. He's a fisher of men. A last hope for all those who have been left behind. He is known as The Guardian. Ben Randall always said life is about making choices. In the end, by making his, he helped me make mine."

In the end I hope I'm like Senior Chief, Ben Randall. That I care about the one, that I don't let go, no matter the personal cost. That I understand the lesson, take action, and sacrifice So Others May Live.

That I Never Let Go.
That I Am A GUARDIAN.

Never Let Go

Can you lay your life down, so a stranger can live?
Can you take what you need, but take less than you give?
Could you close every day, without the glory and fame?
Could you hold your head high, when no one knows your name?
That's how legends are made, at least that's what they say.

Can you lose everything, you ever had planned?
Can you sit down again, and play another hand?
Could you risk everything, for the chance of being alone?
Under pressure find the grace, or would you come undone?
That's how legends are made, at least that's what they say?

We say goodbye, but never let go.
We live, we die, cause you can't save every soul.
Gotta take every chance to, show that you're the kinda man who;
Will never look back, never look down,
and never let go.

Never let go, Never let go, Never let go

- Written & Performed By Bryan Adams

wenatchee's funtastic carnival

2011-04-29T19:12:00.000-07:00

Every year we're fortunate enough to be given bracelets for the Funtastic Carnival by a good friend.

Getting ready to fly...

Fairs aren't really Logan's thing. He skipped out and hung with some buddies instead. Brooklynn brought a friend and melded into the crowds. Jaxsen and Kyle decided to fly.

...round...

...and round...

I took random shots of things that made me happy, things I wanted to remember.

PEACE - (the hand signal of the night)

I asked him, "Hey Jax what's the sign for?"

"Mom, it means peace."

"Ummm, ya, I know. Why do you keep giving me the peace sign?"

"To let you know everything's good."

[questioning]

"Oh, I thought that was thumbs up."

[said as if I should have known]

"Mommm..."

Games cost you 10 tickets for three tries. $20 bucks for 40 tickets. Ouch!

Russ & Jax | Father & Son

Miming to the jazz tumbling out of overhead speakers.

Friends

Hats - Hats - Hats

Kettle Caramel Corn - Delish!

Walla Walla Park

The Columbia River from the park

choices

2011-04-28T21:24:00.000-07:00

Listening

Her Name is FIRE

She's a monster...a beautiful, 17 year old, monster whose story is told by Kristin Cashore. FIRE takes place 35 years before GRACELING.

I miss Kelley & Sonny (WONDROUS STRANGE). It's random, I know, I just had to say it.

Brigan, Prince Brigan, commander of the King's army. I must say I am liking him "Soldiers would fall head over hilt to die for him." Supposedly, he's not that handsome, but with a line like that he doesn't need to be. That line says everything!

While listening I work on my genealogy. Toggling back and forth between Ancestry, email, and various documents stored on my thumb drive.

***

Season 3 - Panama

It's evening now, Russ turned on the TV. We're watching the final episode of Season 3. I will never visit Panama.

It's ironic, really, I have an astronomical fear of prison (something I don't normally go around telling people), yet here I sit watching Prison Break. I'm not sure when I acquired the fear, but I was little.

Monroe Correctional Complex

Sometimes, my parents would drive by the MCC. It always made my heart race and my hands and feet go cold for as long as I can remember. One day I asked what it was, that big place surrounded by fence, my dad told me it was the prison. I didn't really know what a prison was and I never wanted to find out, that much I was certain of.

Have I ever mentioned I'm a bit claustrophobic? At least I think I am -- it's not so much the size of the space, but the ability to leave it that gets my blood pumping. I don't think I could live on an island, even a big one, even if I had a boat. I have to be able to walk away, take a different path, have a choice.

Choice. That's what it always comes down to for me. If I don't think I have one I want to run. Every decision I make is based on the choices it affords me and the more choices available the better I feel.

Brigham Young University - No Fences

Even taking general education courses, at BYU, I chose classes that led to the most majors. I didn't want to be limited and I didn't want to do double duty.

Salt Lake Temple

When I married, I married in the Salt Lake Temple for time and all eternity. Family - FOREVER -Nobody gets left behind. Infinite choices, infinite possibilities.

waiting is a waste of time

2011-04-26T16:21:00.000-07:00

Finished

I really enjoyed it. Would have loved it, but I wanted to spend more time reading about the end. I wish it wasn't over. I have questions, I want to know more.

Discovered

I might not be able to wait for the library on this one. Not that I don't have a large stack of novels by my bedside, because I do. It's a new trilogy. ENCLAVE (Razorland #1) by Ann Aquirre. I hear it's fast and edgy, just the way I like 'em.

A first - my oldest gave a copy of THE BOOK OF MORMON to his friend the other day. It can actually be read on-line here. I love how instantly you can access footnotes and other references. Technology is amazing.

Today, I was reminded that anything worthwhile takes time to achieve. I knew that. Then I was reminded that "I don't feel like it" and waiting for the "perfect" time, are not valid excuses. What I loved though, what I'm going to start saying to myself as often as I can, is this, "Waiting is a waste of time!" So true!!! Every day we should spend some time doing those things that will allow us to move forward and accomplish those things that are calling our names.

reading

2011-04-23T20:02:00.000-07:00

Finished

I'm on a bit of a reading frenzy. Just ask my husband. I read in my bedroom. I read in the kitchen. I read in the car when my honey is driving. I'm looking forward to Uncommon Criminals June 21st.

Finished

This is my latest run. Albeit there are three or four swear words. I always find that sad, they're really unnecessary. I'd love my daughter to read the series and it would have been a slam dunk had the language been clean.

Finished

Book two, is just as good as book one. Which is not typical. So many times in a trilogy book two is a bunch of fluff. This one was a pleasant surprise.

Reading

I can't wait to get started! I'd have started hours ago except...

...my honey wants to watch Prison Break and I can't miss out on what happens to Michael. I love that man! So I torture myself, almost forget to breathe, tense my muscles, and keep one eye open at all times.

Season 1 - I sat on the couch with my knees pulled into my chest quietly repeating over and over, "Ohhh Michael, Miiichael, Michael.... Noooooo...Michael.

Season 2 - I shouted, outloud, "RUN, Michael, RUUUUUNNNN...run, run, run, run, RRRUNNNNN!"

Season 3 - I'm back to, "Ohhh Michael, noooo, pleeease no...." In my mind I'm thinking, "Why am I doing this to myself?" The stress, the anguish, and all because I can't let go of the guy whose mind is amazing, who tries to remain whole while going to the ends of the world to save the ones he loves.

princesses and tomahawks

2011-04-16T22:51:00.000-07:00

I taught a class, Princess Diaries at the Princess Academy.

I created my first power point. Keynote is AWESOME.

Brooklynn and Taylor helped with the class. Russ ran back-up in the event of technical difficulties. Which there were so good thing he was there.

I used my iPad, bliss.

We rewarded ourselves with a trip to Olive Garden. Warm breadsticks, good company, what could be better? The girls split the Chicken and Shrimp Cabonara and topped it off with Black Tie Mouse. I enjoyed an all-you-can-eat salad, and Russ feasted on the Grilled Chicken Flatbread.

Meanwhile... Jaxsen arrived home from his first BSA camp out in Chelan. Hours spent with a bow and a tomahawk seemingly turned him into a weapons expert of sorts. Every mothers dream (ya, right). As I laid my keys on the kitchen counter Jax began,

"Mom, I know your answer will be 'no', but..."
"But what Jax?"
"Well, I know you're gonna say, 'no', I probably shouldn't..."
"Just spill it Jax, lay it on me."
"Well, I would like to get a, I know you're gonna say, 'no', but I would really like to buy, with my own money, a -- (loooong pause) a tomahawk."
"Really?" I asked amused. "I thought you were more of a bow and arrows kind of guy?"
With a rush of excitement he proclaimed, "Mom, the tomahawk is sooooo cool!"

What commenced was a physical demonstration of tomahawk throwing, a lesson in posture, along with an invitation to view the many possible tomahawks that he had searched out to possibly purchase. I did have a question though and I had to ask it.

"Jax, what are you planning to throw the tomahawk at? Are you planning on using the fence?"
"Oh, no mom, there were these big wooden deer, in Chelan, and Kyle thought he saw some at Hooked on Toys when he bought his bow."
"A big wooden deer?"
"Ya, we could put it in the back yard."
"Lovely."

I never really did understand the concept of that store. Rows and rows of toys on one side, sporting goods down the center that merges into camping and hunting gear. Complete with guns, knives, and the like. I don't think in my wildest dreams did I ever think I'd be shopping on the other side, the weapons side, back in the day, when my kids were two, four and seven.

Times have definitely changed. Not that I said, "Yes" to the tomahawk, but changed none the less.

Me, Russ, Jen & Scott.

Russ and I decided to see a movie, with friends. Source Code. We enjoyed it, although the premise was disturbing.

stefen's mission call

2011-04-13T22:40:00.000-07:00

Stefen got his mission call.

We put him on speaker.

Heard the envelope rip, the paper unfold.

Heard his voice read confidently the words of the letter, then begin to shake as it stated his worthiness to serve the Lord.

We heard the anticipation, the excitement, the sobs of joy.

Stefen will serve in the Kenya Nairobi Mission - English speaking!

Serve in Nairobi, where the temperature is 75 degrees most of the year.

Nairobi, where the population is over 2,000,000.

This mission is new, created less than a year ago.

As of January 2010, Kenya has 1 stake and 5 wards.

We are all so EXCITED for Stefen. He reports August 11th.

I'm so grateful for his mother, Shauna.

She's honest, brave, and courageous.

When we love each other, help each other, when we care, we open the gateway for limitless possibilities.

My boys are wondering where they'll go.

Finished

Jax and I loved it! Next up, GATHERING BLUE by Lois Lowry.

Finished

Beautifully written, no wonder Brooklynn's read it five times. Jax read it last year, he remembered every detail and warned that I should not listen to it with him in the room or he would be tempted to tell me everything.

Finished

I ordered this one by accident, thinking it was part of the MAXIMUM RIDE series by the same author. I thought I might as well listen to it since I had it. It's not "my" favorite, but it would be great for alien loving kids. Evidently, Jax is not one of these. He's now listening to THE MORTAL INSTRUMENTS series by Cassandra Clare.

giving + gratitude = joy

2011-04-11T21:26:00.000-07:00

Kirsten made dinner. DELICIOUS! Dale taught us all about gratitude.

We said goodbye to our swing set.

It took many hands and some muscle.

There was some instruction given,

maneuvering,

and strategic placement of fathers and kids.

Goodbye swing set.

Two little people stayed with Brooklynn and I.

Liam gave us a show,

filled with smiles, giggles, and exuberant facial expressions.

Vivian watched from the comfort of Brooklynn's arms.

It's good to give, good to receive, both bring joy.

Listening

Jax and I are spending time together listening.

Reading

Amazing, Enlightening, Profound

kitchen choices

2011-04-08T22:49:00.000-07:00

Armstrong - Hartford Maple - Beveled Edges in Two Widths

This is not my house. My kitchen is awaiting a remodel after experiencing some water damage from a leaky dishwasher. Today, we finally solidified a budget with our home insurance. Today we picked out all the elements for the new kitchen. It took about 2 hours. It was a tough decision. Before all this happened we were getting ready to sell. You ask yourself, "Should I choose for the buyer or myself? It's a tough market, what if the house doesn't sell?" I want to love my kitchen. Let's face it, I spend a lot of time in there and it's open to the family room so it really gets lived in. I chose for myself. This is what the new floor will look like. What I love about it are that the planks come in two different widths. We're going to mix them up.

Karmen Cabinetry - Java

Veins of Java run through the light floor. The contrast of light and dark are strikingly beautiful. The cabinets will go all the way to the ceiling and be topped off with crown molding. There will be a lazy-susan, roll out shelves, and an above fridge cabinet that extends over the top of the fridge, with another roll out drawer.

A travertine, cream, backsplash. Two layers of staggered bricks, 6" in height, will anchor the flooring.

~~Wilsonart Laminate - Bronzed Fusion~~

~~Caramel Latte~~

Jamocha Granite Formica

The light veining in the counter top makes the cabinets pop. ~~The rounded edges will have a gem-lock, caramel latte, Corian, inlay~~. A counter top change. Pitted formica. A bit shinier. Out with the gem-lock.

I have to say, working with Russ on this project was painless. He was sooo helpful, pulling out the different door colors, lining everything up, bringing out more choices, listening, quietly sharing his opinion, patient. The only element I'm hesitant on is the caramel latte Corian, but it was the one thing he really had an opinion about. His finishing touch, I'm sure, will be perfect.

Famished! My honey and I split a Bonzai Burger at Red Robin. It was just what we needed. When I was tooling around for an image I found a recipe for making one at home. I can't wait to give it a try.

Addicted

I put it on my iPad. I'm on the 5th puzzle, level hard. My mind craves it.

Watching

Logan's on Season 3. Yesterday, he grabbed me by the hand, "Mom, it's time." He sat down with me and we watched Season 1, Episode 1. He knew it would happen. I'm hooked. I didn't want to keep going without Russ. Again, we watched Season 1, Episode 1, together. It was just as good the second time. I think I know what Saturday holds.

the new novel

2011-04-07T21:21:00.000-07:00

The New Novel by Winslow Homer

My cousin, Darren Young, posted this photo on facebook. I fell in love. This is one of my favorite positions and one of my favorite pleasures.

Finished

I started, got a couple of pages in, and set it aside. Yesterday, I realized THE LAST THING I REMEMBER by Andrew Klavan was overdue by a day and couldn't be renewed because someone was waiting for it. Before I turned it back in, I thought I should give it another try. I decided, at the end of chapter 2, I liked it. I liked it because the main character, Charlie, is a good guy, a teen who believes in God and is trying to do the right thing. How often do you find an action packed book, geared for teens, where the main male character talks about going to church and having faith? Not often, especially on main stream book shelves.

Never give in. Never give in. Never, never, never, never--in nothing, great or small, large or petty--never give in, except to convictions of honor and good sense. Never yield to force. Never yield to the apparently overwhelming might of the enemy. - Winston Churchill

Reading

Touted as, "A thriller that reads like a teenage version of 24...an adrenaline-pumping adventure." I hope so!

Arrived Yesterday

Loving my new iPad 2. Logan's helping me swankify it. Russ is helping me sync it. I am still pinching myself to make sure it's real.

4 Time Winner

"Hey Jax you wanna play a game with me?"
"Sure, what do you want to play mom?"
"You pick."

Phase 10 - I lost, Jax won.
Rummikub - I won, Jax lost.
Parcheesi (his fave) - Game 1 - Jax won. Game 2 - Jax won. Game 3 - Jax won. I give up.

Five games. One win for me. Four wins for Jax. The boy sure can roll those doubles!

out of the blue

2011-04-05T23:06:00.000-07:00

Finished

The wait begins and Brooklynn doesn't think it's fair.

November 1, 2011

November feels like forever from now. Brooklynn asks if Crossed will be released at midnight on October 31st. I don't have the answer, but I promise her that if it is we will go.

www.smallnotebook.org

I wish I had words to express the elation, relief, and joy this site brings me! Today I read, and followed, The Paper Pile Makeover. Brooklynn shredded enough paper to fill five large kitchen garbage bags. Our recycle bin is full. I also read Holding on to Sentimental Things. I love Rachel's quote, "The fewer things you keep, the more special they are." I am looking forward to happily ever after with this blog. Thank you Rachel!

Logan, Jaxsen, and I played. Logan won all three games.

***

We had visitors today.

Everett, got a new bike!

O.J. rolls with excitement.

We are all excited to see Everett ride...

...but then he gets a little shy.

After awhile...

...he takes off. Liam offers big brother some instruction.

There's a little accident. Some tears are shed.

Dale and Liam cheer Everett on.

Vivian waits patiently.

We're so glad they stopped by!

anticipation

2011-04-04T20:40:00.000-07:00

Our whole family enjoys this show.

My favorite character is Katie (Autumn Reeser). The cute gal second from the left.

This is Joshua (Josh Stewart). The last time we saw him he was leaving the city, on a bus, with no intention of coming back. He's evil, but not, but yet he is, but not really. He has powers, Katie doesn't (until recently...buuut they're not really her powers, they're his, in a manner of speaking.) Anyway, the point is I want him to come back! I love Joshua, especially love him with Katie. She brings out the good in him. I enjoy watching him fight his dark side and discovering what choices he's made that have led him to this point. Besides, Katie needs him now. She doesn't realize it, but she does.

Have you seen it? My favorite Disney movie to date!

Brooklynn and I have tried to imitate "the smolder" and have decided it's a guy thing.

I laugh, I cry, I laugh, I cry, and I never seem to tire of watching it.

Jaxsen found these at Walmart today. I couldn't help but say, "Yes." I've eaten four, maybe five, I've lost count. What I do know, for sure, is that there is only one left.

Chapter 27

I love that Brooklynn and I are reading this together. I don't want to stop reading, but it's good that she makes us take breaks for things like water and a breath of fresh air.

www.goodreads.com

I love this site. I love cataloging all the books I've ever read and seeing the number add up. I enjoy reading all the blurbs of books I haven't read, but think I might like to read. I love that I can put my books onto shelves: Read, Currently Reading, To Read. I like seeing what my friends have read, what they want to read, what they think of different books they've read through their star-rating and book review. I also really like how the site keeps me current on what's coming up in the book world. I signed Brooklynn up today and added her as my friend.

iPad 2 screen protector

universal stylus

These arrived in my mailbox today. Which makes me all the more anxious for the upcoming delivery I await.

I watched Chocolat. I mulled over what I thought. I didn't feel a need to eat chocolat. Russ asked me what I thought. "I think it is good to be reminded that sometimes we can get so caught up in right and wrong, or our perceived notions of it, that we forget our humanity, and our humanity is something we should never forget."

april general conference {part II}

2011-04-03T18:35:00.000-07:00

Cinnamon rolls on conference morning are a tradition. They've always been homemade, but not this time. With the kitchen torn apart I opted for store bought. I felt wonderful when my family told me these are not as good as mine. Awww...thanks!

Words I Loved

Dieter F. Uchtdorf

Just as a puzzle is formed one piece at a time, answers to prayers often come in pieces. When we look back we are able to recognize the grand scheme of it all.
God loves you. He hears you. Seek him. Honor him.

Paul V. Johnson

Trials are not just to test us, but are a part of putting on our divine nature.

No pain, no trial, is wasted.
All that we suffer and endure builds our character.
Personal growth is the intended outcome.
The darkest and most dangerous tests precede the greatest blessings.

David A. Bednar

Sincere desire and worthiness invites revelation. Thoughts and feelings that come into our minds and hearts.
A light turned on is like receiving an answer quickly, succinctly, immediate. More rare than common.
A gradual increase of light, like the rising sun, line upon line precept upon precept, gradually and gently distilling upon our souls. More common than rare.

Rome, Italy Temple

President Thomas S. Monson

Make time to attend the temple. Attend often. Take your youth.

Richard G. Scott

Pure love is a competent, potent, power for good.

Mother’s are given divine instincts to help children grow.

D. Todd Christofferson

We will be judged not just by what we have done, but the effects of our acts.

Scriptures

Lynn G. Robbins

The Lord puts greater importance on Being then Doing.

Baptism – Do/ Faith - BE

Take sacrament – Do/ Worthy - BE

To Do – Checked off when done.

To BE – Never done, a part of your nature.

Teach BE rather than Do. Doing will follow the Being. Teach Attributes.

Look for the unseen motive in their heart.

Ask, “What attribute needs to be taught?”

The Lord has taught how discipline should be used. (D&C 121: 35-46)

Turn negatives into positives and give the spirit an opportunity to teach them.

Never let a failure become an identity. Disappointing behavior is an act not an identity.

Teach to BE by being the kind of parent the Lord is to us.

{As I listened I felt the Lords tender mercies, I felt understood, I felt loved. I felt a huge weight lifted from my shoulders. I felt peace.}

C. Scott Grow

When we sin Satan tells us we are lost, but it isn’t true. Repent.

Ask for forgiveness.

Forgive those who have wronged you.

Forgive yourself.

Be made clean, sanctified.

Jeffrey R. Holland

We testify that God not only lives, but that He speaks.

Salvation can only come the Lords way.

april general conference {part I}

2011-04-02T23:22:00.000-07:00

First Presidency of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints

I love conference. I love these men. President Eyring, President Monson, President Uchtdorf. They are good men, kind men, loving men.

{I've been praying. I have a question. I'm ready to receive answers.}

Twin Falls, Idaho Temple

Today, many years ago, I was sealed to my parents, for time and all eternity, in the Twin Falls, Idaho Temple. Three new temples were announced today. Fort Collins, Colorado - Meridian, Idaho - Winnipeg, Canada.

***

Antique Sacrament Cup

Words I Loved

L. Tom Perry

· "...Jesus Christ is the only man to come into the world with dual citizenship." {I love that.}

· The Savior should be the centerpiece of my life.

· {I have recommitted myself to finishing JESUS THE CHRIST by James E. Talmage. I find myself thinking so hard as I read the text; sometimes my head hurts after a few pages.}

· {I feel a need for greater observance of the Sabbath.}

· {This is one of the things I appreciate about conference: The opportunity to recommit myself, to do better, to be better.}

Walter F. Gonzalez

· The way we treat others is the way we show love to the Father.

President Henry B. Eyring

· Feel the call to do good, to help. Feel compassion.

Russell M. Nelson

· Do not let fear displace faith.

· Strength comes when you remember your divine nature.

Richard J. Maynes

· There is power and protection in establishing celestial traditions in our homes. Prayer, scripture study, family home evening.

Cecil O. Samuelson Jr.

· Testimonies - Our sure witness of the truthfulness of the gospel of Jesus Christ.

· Q: How does one obtain a testimony?

· A: After you have read and studied it out, ask. The truth will be manifested unto you.

· Always be clear that the atonement of Christ is for all.

Dallin H. Oaks

· Desire dictates choice. Choice dictates action. Action shapes who we become.

· True story: A man in charge of his battalion during the war has each group of guards call him every hour, throughout the night, and report. To help the guards stay awake. To let him know they are all okay. When asked why, he expressed that when he returned after the war he knew he would run into many of the parents of these boys. He wanted to be able to say he had done everything, within his power, to get those boys home alive.

· This story is a beautiful example of desire, labor, and faith. This story is a beautiful example of accountability for the men under his care. He understood the weight of his burden. He felt accountable not only to the men, but to the parents of those men. We, too, should feel that accountability to the Lord for the souls he entrusts to our care, as parents, teachers, and leaders to keep these souls safe, that we all may return to him.

· {This is especially tender to my heart.}

· When we have a vision of what we can become our desire and actions will fall in place accordingly. We must cut and carve ourselves free of those things that hold us back.

· What we consistently desire over time is what we will eventually become.

· Eternal beings forgive all, love all, put others first.

· Begin with a desire for these qualities.

· {This talk is part of the answer to my question.}

Panning for Gold

M. Russell Ballard

· The gospel can be summed up in one, simple, principle. Love. Love the Lord thy God and then love thy neighbor as thyself.

· Think, feel, and act like Jesus would think, feel, and act.

· Love one another as the Lord loves us.

· There is no place for unkind words for the essence of greatness is kindness.

· Kindness and love soften hearts and molds relationships.

· {Another part of the answer to my question.}

friiiii-day

2011-04-01T20:14:00.000-07:00

Finished

Yesterday, while I blogged, I finished GRACELING by Kristin Cashore. What an interesting world she has created, filled with people who are graced with interesting gifts. It made me wonder what life would be like if our bodies were born with markings that disclosed our gifts, talents, and abilities. What would that mean for me as a person? What if I could look at others and instantly see, know, what they were good at. How would this change how we saw and interacted with one another?

This is not the direction of the book, nor does the book play out in the way of my thoughts, but it brought the question to my mind none the less. While it seems the results of knowing such things might be beneficial I can also see the danger in knowing as well.

Watched

Last night, three of us watched Wall Street: Money Never Sleeps. Russ fell asleep. Logan and I really liked it. We both felt it gave us a lot to think about. We both would like to change the world and do something meaningful. My favorite quote from the movie:

"What is the definition of insanity? Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result."

I am insane more often than not.

***

The kids are home today and they'll be home all next week for spring break.

Jen left for Utah last night.

Russ went to work.

Jax went to a friends.

Logan, Brooklynn, and myself went to Big 5 Sporting Goods.

Brooklynn begins softball when school starts up again. She needed shoes, which led to socks, a mitt, ball, sliding equipment, pants, and a NY baseball cap she fell in love with.

Babolat

Adidas Barricade Trainer

Then I came home and made an order from Tennis Warehouse. It's good to see Logan excited about a sport after all the heart stuff he's been through. I'm counting our blessings. If it weren't for his heart he would have never played tennis. Would have never known what it felt like to truly feel joy playing a sport he loves. If it weren't for his heart he would have still been playing LaCrosse, which he likes, but now knows he doesn't love. If it weren't for his heart he may be playing Rugby and as I think of the boy that tackled wrong, a few weeks ago, tackled with his head and broke his neck, I'm thankful for blessings that come after the dawn.

***

I borrowed Russ's mitt and practiced throwing the ball with Brooklynn, it felt wonderful!

Brooklynn's Desk

This is Brooklynn's desk. This is where we sat after we came in from playing ball.

Can you catch a glimpse of who she is by what's on her desk?

A porcelain, siamese, cat that looks like her real cat, Diamond.
Blue painters tape to attach paper to her light board.
A homemade journal.
A fancy, swirly, calendar in black and teal.
Hand-drawn characters, chalked and sprayed, for a story she's writing.

On the screen we searched: You Tube Knitting. We watched How to Knit and How to Knit a Scarf. She knitted, I read.

Half Way Through

I love spending time with her. I loved today. I thanked her. Hugged her. I hope we can do it again tomorrow.

Russ and Brooklynn have gone to the game. Jax is still at a friends. I'm hungry, but not for anything in the house. I will be so glad when the kitchen is repaired.

Logan is watching Prison Break. I was 9 minutes too late to make the showing of Season 1 Episode1. I guess I'll have to wait and see if Russ wants to give it a go. Logan says I will LOVE it, that I'll be hooked by the end of the first episode and won't be able to stop watching. We shall see.

I'm listening to DANIEL X: WATCH THE SKIES. Daniel's a 15 year old alien trying to protect the earth from other aliens who are trying to take it over. I ordered it on accident, thinking it was part of the MAXIMUM RIDE series that he loves. Jax started listening and 2 minutes in he was done. Aliens are not his thing, at least not these aliens. DANIEL X: WATCH THE SKIES is actually the second in a series of three. I haven't read the first and I probably won't. I doubt I'll read the third either, but I'm halfway through it so I might as well finish.

Jax is home. He just informed me that I need a hot tub. I would enjoy the warmth, even when it's cold outside. Even if it were snowing. I would enjoy the bubbles, the lights, and the warmth. Evidently, it feels awesome!

Jax wants to make cookies. Why does everyone all of a sudden want homemade goodies? He suggested peanut butter and then changed his mind to "whatever kind I would like, whatever kind will make me happy". Is he good or what?

treasures of the heart

2011-03-31T15:02:00.000-07:00

My Cousin Matt

This is Matt. He was born on my birthday, when I was 11 years old. I remembered the picture we received of him. So darling. I remember taking the picture to my room, propping it up against my collectibles. I think he was holding his toes.

I pondered. I would have never thrown it away. I'm not sentimental about things, I never have been, but pictures, cards, letters...I can't let them go. So I wondered if the picture, I remembered, was in the tote I keep under my bed.

As I sorted through the pile of the contents in the tote, with half of it on the floor in front of me, I found it. I felt the water begin to well in my eyes. These are the treasures that are important, valuable, to me.

Look...

Baby Matt

...he's holding his toes.

My Aunt Grace tells me Matt functions at a 4-year-old level. She describes him as a handsome 6'2" toddler and I think that description is beautiful. Matt likes geometric designs, images of construction equipment and traffic signs. He is fascinated by facial expressions. I am fascinated by my love for him.

Does that sound odd?

I wonder how it is that I can love someone I've never met, never touched, never spoken with, never communicated with in any way? But I do love him and I always have, ever since I saw him in this photograph.

***

FEB 5 1971

Love to All - Grandpa "W"

In 1971 I received these postcards from my Grandpa Winters. I love them. Their 3D image reminds me of what images looked like in my viewmaster.

FEB 1971

Love - Grandpa Winters

In 1972, when my brother was born, my grandparents visited. I remember bits-and-pieces. I was 4 1/2-years-old. My grandparents smile, their round faces. Grandpa John Winters laugh, deep, full, rich. Playing cowboys and indians with Grandma June (Bartel) Winters. Gunsmoke.

We were in Dodge City. Grandma was Marshal Matt Dillon. I was Festus Haggen (reliable sidekick/ part-time deputy to Matt Dillon).

13 Jun 1982 (Sunday)

Bushels of love from your very own Grandpa John + Grandma June xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

This birthday letter, reminding me that Matt was turning 3-years-old. I wish I had written Matt, but I didn't realize the importance of forging relationships with extended family. People I was related to, people I loved. Instead I took time for granted. I suppose, at the age of three, he wouldn't understand the meaning of my words, but that's not the point.

I can say that I feel my grandparents love more intensely today than I did the day I received their cards and letters. While those we love pass away their love grows stronger still. This I know.

***

GGrandpa Alfred "Al" Bartel

I've held on to this card for sooo long. I have very few memories of GGrandpa Al. More of what I heard of him then what I know for myself. He loved fishing.

He was a trickster who loved the Chipmunks and Tony the Tiger. I wish I knew more.

GGrandma Katherine Bartel

When I was little I remember being in their home. I remember the upstairs attic, laying on the bed, windows open, the light curtains waving gently in the wind. The smell of home-cooking. I remember going to school there for a time. A wooden building with an upstairs. Feeling small in the large open room. I remember the sun and the summer heat.

Kansas State Flower

She sewed clothes for my dolls, I still have them. She always sent me sunflower pins.

***

And this, this, was a gift from my Aunt Carolyn (Winters) Cunningham. We visited her in Texas. I was eight. The spelling of my name is somewhat unique, especially then. She took me to a special store. A store where I could choose the color of the cord and the beads. She stood with me as I picked them out. I remember standing, together, looking over all the choices. Picking up different beads, laying them out, putting them back, making the final decision.

She made me feel special, loved. I could feel her energy, her openness.

She passed away this past September, from cancer. I miss her. I have regrets. I regret that I let fear prevent me from reaching out to her years ago. I regret that once I found her I didn't converse with her more often.

I'm grateful for today.

I'm grateful for the future, for opportunities that are not yet lost to me.

w-w-w-wednes day-day-day-d-d-day

2011-03-30T19:56:00.000-07:00

The first words out of Jaxsen's mouth this morning, after, "Mom did you remember what you were supposed to wash yesterday?" was, "How many times did you vote for Amy last night?"

Clinton Kelly from What Not To Wear

"Jax, I didn't vote for Amy last night, BUT I will this morning, promise." You can vote too, by clicking here.

Amy Ferrell - Local Kindergarten Teacher

While I listened to her story I voted for her. Good Luck Amy! I enjoyed listening to Clinton give his (as always) wonderful tips on what to wear along with a reminder that she/we, as American women, deserve to feel beautiful every day. "It's important to go about your day in an energizing way; feeling pretty is energizing."

"It's true", I thought. I'm always more decisive and get more accomplished when I feel pretty.

Following, he said something else, something that resonated with me on a deeper level. Clinton asked Amy how she felt when she wore clothes that were too big for her. "Invisible, like I'm blending in." He acknowledged those feelings. Then he stated, "You should not blend! The world needs more people like you. You're doing good stuff, you should not be blending into the wood work."

"It's true", I thought, again.

***

Finished

I get it. I get why Jax was so upset, at the end of the recording, that I'd returned the cd's to the library. I get why, for the next four days, he hounded me, relentlessly, about reordering them. I get why every day, since he finished, he's asked what number we are in the library line-up. Last night, I told him I was on disc 4. That I was not happy. He threatened to "tell all" if I didn't quit talking. He asked what number we were in the line-up now.

I responded with, "Three. There are three people still ahead of us for "Angel." He suggested, out loud, exasperated, "We should just go buy the book!"

I finished FANG today. I thought there was a chance I might feel happy at the conclusion. I was wrong.

Then I heard what Jax had heard. The reason he was so disappointed I'd returned the cd's. The reason he hounded me for four days.

I clicked over to ncrl.org and reordered the FANG cd's, 'cause now I understand. So, so, sorry Jax.

***

I've been thinking about sitting. Yes, you read it correctly, s-i-t-t-i-n-g. I do a lot of it. I sit through meals, email, genealogy research, blogging, book reading, surfing around online, television viewing, homework with the kids, driving in the car....

My body reflects the time I've spent sitting. Today, my email presented me with some tips for dealing with all that sitting. I did some of the stretching exercises today -- the stretch felt sooooo goood!

***

Our Kitchen

Our kitchen's all ripped up. That's what happens when an unknown leak drips, for almost a month, from beneath the dishwasher. The floor's been discontinued, a couple of cabinets warped, the countertop ripped during removal. Our insurance has weighed in on a price. I'm not sure it's enough, $5,000 less than the company we're working with has estimated to replace everything.

Russ had an idea, "What if we leave the laminate flooring in the dining room and entry, and just replace the kitchen?" "We could put in tile", I suggested. What do you think?

The Thrill of Hope - Blog

My friend, Andrea, has this picture posted on her blog. It's wonderful! I LOVE IT!!! Then I noticed the flooring. Tile next to laminate.

The Thrill of Hope - Blog

Brooklynn finished with her final swim meet today. She is sooo beautiful in the water. Graceful and smooth. She's at dance, learning hip-hop from Loryn.

Logan suggested I pay his friend, Chris, to give him tennis lessons...hmmm, I wonder if he'd give Jax lessons too. This might be a good thing.

Russ sold my mac. It's just so "cute". It lived in Brooklynn's room, then the kitchen, it's been in storage for the last year. Yet, when he put it on Craigslist I felt a pang of sadness. He assures me I will love my new ipad more (sigh).

Listening

This is the first audiobook that I've listened to that has a cast, of sorts. It's a little slow, at the moment, but I hear it picks up.

I miss Russ. He's attending stake meetings. I don't miss him for any particular reason, I guess, I must just love the guy. I miss Brooklynn and Logan, both away. I always miss my kids when they're away.

tuesday-ay-ay-ay

2011-03-29T23:08:00.000-07:00

I checked my email this morning and hit play on the movie trailer for The Conspirator. Jax watched over my shoulder. I thought he'd catch a glimpse and walk away. He didn't. He was fixated.

April 15, 2011

As the trailer came to a close Jax excitedly asked, "Do you know where the bullet went?" Before I could answer he launched into, "It went through the back of his skull and lodged over his right eye. Then the shooter tried to kill again, but he missed. He jumped from the balcony into the crowd and injured his leg, here. Later they confirmed the injury...." Russ and I sat there, Brooklynn stood at the mirror. We all stared. Jax kept talking.

"Jax, did you learn that at school or see it on TV?"

"I read it."

"Of course."

Logan took the car to school and left me grounded at home. I found a new blog that I love, Small Notebook for a simple home. I organized photos.

Finished

My thought on the way "Max" ended, "Are you kidding me? THAT does NOT make me happy!"

Listening

My thoughts on how "Fang" is progressing, "Are you kidding me? THIS does NOT make me happy!"

Before I knew it Logan was home. He came upstairs with one of these. A Snapple. I've never tried one before and neither had he. We were both pleased. Note to self: Add Snapple's to the grocery list.

Rafael Nadal

After finishing off the Snapple, this guys face appeared on the mac in Logan's room. I guess, he's some awesome tennis player, a lefty, like Logan.

Babolat AeroPro Drive GT Plus

This is the lefty's racket of choice. Logan is currently borrowing a friends racket. Guess what's now on his wish list?

After picking up Brooklynn from swim practice, Russ dropped me off at the high school auditorium. Logan and I attended the Wenatchee Valley College Running Start meeting.

Everyone had corn dogs for dinner. I had a Genoa sandwich. We made popcorn. We ate popcorn. I washed a load of jeans and signed the kids up for free summer bowling. It's cold in my bedroom.

Jax keeps talking about Amy Ferrell, a kindergarten teacher at his school. He's on my facebook voting for her to win Macys Million Dollar Makeover. "Mom, she needs a bigger house! Her house is only the size of my classroom and a little bit of the computer lab. She has 5 children and 3 of them are adopted. She wants to start a program for underachieving kids so they can get help." As if this wasn't enough to convince me, he went on, "Every time you vote for her you'll be entered for a $500 Macy's gift card! That's a lot of money mom."

"Jax it's time for bed."

"Please keep voting mom and count your clicks."

m-m-m-mon-day

2011-03-28T22:49:00.000-07:00

Monday is late start. We leave the house at 8:45.

Jax has patrol this week. It's his most favorite thing to do at school. He likes to be the first one there.

Logan stopped at Dizzy D's on his way to seminary and got himself a White Chocolate Italian Soda. He offered me a sip.

Brooklynn - After School

Brooklynn looked darling in her new, white, gauzy T over a bright magenta tank. Her ripped up jeans, grey Converse, and flat ironed brunette hair are darling. She won't be swimming today, still getting over a sore throat, so she dusted her eyes with a bit of shadow, slicked on some mascara, and made her lips shimmery. I love it when she takes time for herself.

Russ had a dental appointment. He sees our friend Jason Tveten. He came home with whitening trays.

Jen called, she's at her kids' dental appointment. I'm happy and sad she'll be in Utah over spring break.

Finished

Listening

Brooklynn performed her first chin-up today. Jax is up to two in a row. Tomorrow I will continue to try to complete one (this may take several days).

While I blogged here, Russ, Logan, and Brooklynn watched Amazing Race. Jax discovered a new app on his dad's iphone, a language translator. He's been walking around recording himself saying things like, "My name is Jaxsen Dixon" and playing back the german translation. He would like something to listen to, in german, while he sleeps. He's been asking for months.

There are dishes in my sink downstairs. They will have to wait 'til tomorrow.

sunday thoughts

2011-03-27T23:27:00.000-07:00

Fast Sunday is usually the first Sunday of the month. However, today is Fast Sunday because next week is conference. I always love conference. Prayerfully considering questions, preparing to receive answers. We always make cinnamon rolls and feast on them during the morning session.

It will be good to take a break from the regular routine.

It will be good to be together, as a family, the five of us. I miss Sundays together.

It will be good to feel the truthfulness of the gospel.

It will be good to feel peace.

***

We got to video chat with Shauna and Stefen.

Stefen turned in his mission papers today. In two weeks we should know where he's going. He'll probably leave in June. When he does, his 1995 Red Jeep Cherokee Sport will be coming to live at our house. Logan will be driving the jeep. When Stefen returns he has dibs on buying it back.

I really, really, miss them! The whole family misses them.

***

Tonight we watched

We enjoy trying to figure out what will happen next.

The guys in the hats, the observers, are back.

early to rise

2011-03-26T23:38:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, when I'm worried I won't hear the alarm clock go off, I wake up multiple times, throughout the night, checking the time. Last night was one of those nights. Logan needed to be at WHS at 6 am. He was going to Hanford and Southridge for a tennis match.

I came home, put in a load of laundry, put away the dishes, fed the dog, and went back to bed. I couldn't go back to sleep, for a long time. I woke up at 9.

Russ was on his iPhone. I checked my email. We watched "Who Do You Think You Are?" The power went out, but we kept watching -- Russ tethered his iPhone to the computer and voila!

Jaxsen has been trying and trying to do a pull-up. Today was his day. YAY Jax!!! I cannot do one.

I bought this skirt today at JC Penney. I think my black, spiked, heels will go better with it than the shoes the model is wearing. I'm no fashion guru though, so it's feasible that I'm totally wrong.

Brooklynn and I were meeting friends for dinner and we were almost late because we went back to JC Penney to buy her these dresses. She has some really cute shrugs to cover up her shoulders. They're longer on her, which is a good thing.

We listened to Heist Society by Ally Carter. We really like it! Which is good 'cause I already ordered all the Gallagher Girls audio books by the same author.

We picked up Jen and Taylor and went out to eat at La Fuente (Russ and Jax went to Wendy's). Then we attended the YW Conference. It was wonderful. We came home and even though it was late, I had the kids clean their bathrooms. While Brooklynn cleaned I read to her from Matched by Ally Condie. I kept reading while she picked up her room.

Logan came home. His wrist is making a horrible noise and it hurts. Maggie's taking him to the Sports Med Center at WHS on Monday. She thinks he needs a brace. He seems to think she knows what she's talking about. They are both sophomores. I'm thinking, "Since when does another girl take care of you other than me and sometimes your sister"? Hmmm....

just another wednesday

2011-03-23T15:41:00.000-07:00

It's Wednesday. 2:09 pm. Jaxsen will be home in 23 minutes, or so. Logan has a tennis match in Chelan, he'll be back at 8. Brooklynn's going to swim early, be out of the pool by 4:30, so she can help me decorate cupcakes for activity day tonight at 8. Russ has stake meetings. They'll begin at 6:30 and I won't see him again 'til 9:30, maybe even 10, tonight. He'll take Brooklynn to dance, at Loryn's, a little before 6.

Some of the things on my to-do list:

Target. Surprise! A cake mix, frosting, spray icing in grass green, sour gummy bunnies, star candles.

Laundry, as always. Even when it's done it doesn't last longer than a few hours.
Bake cupcakes. Make 'em and let 'em cool so they can be decorated, later.

(missing)

Locate ~~Pictionary~~ Apples to Apples Jr. for tonights activity.

Some things that weren't planned:

A tennis racket that didn't get into the right car this morning.

Costco rolls that missed their ride, twice.
Clothes that could not be denied a wearing by their owner. A burnt orange rugby shirt and green hoodie.

A visit from France & Co., signatures collected
Talking with Jen (one of my favorite things to do)

All the while, all through today, I've listened to FALLEN by Lauren Kate, I'm in the middle of Disc 8. By tonight I will be finished and waiting for Torment, Book 2. Currently, I have 5 books checked out, and am waiting (patiently) on 7, from Wenatchee's North Central Regional Library.

Brooklynn just called, sore throat, headache. No swimming tonight. Jax is home, happy, no homework, ahead on his school work. It's time to go.

a crack

2011-03-22T15:09:00.000-07:00

I've wanted to blog more often. I've even made goals, in the past, to do so. I keep thinking I need to find my voice, but what if that isn't it? What if I just need to not be afraid to hear it?

This morning I wrote my Aunt Grace. She's wonderful and I think everyone should have someone like her in their lives. She makes me feel lucky.

Jaxsen called me today, he was reporting his math maps score. Jax is in 5th grade, he's smart, but I don't think he believes it.

I went to Target. I bought Sprite, 7-Up, Gatorade in Red, Blue, Purple and Orange, Crackers, and stick deodorant for Logan, AXE. I smelled them all. I bought not one, but two Axe bodysprays.

I took the 7-Up and Gatorade to a sick friend, along with my favorite flaky crackers with a light buttery taste.

I went to Costco with Russ on his lunch break. We purchased petrol, muffins, rolls, cupcakes, lettuce, celery, and breaded chicken. Celery, lettuce, and breaded chicken were not on my original list, but since when do I ever follow the list?

When I arrived home I stayed in my car, listening to We R Who We R by Ke$ha. I turned the engine off and cranked up the radio, letting the words wash over me.

We're dancing like we're dumb-dumb-du-du-du-dumb
Our bodies go numb-numb-nu-nu-nu-numb
We'll be forever young-young-y-y-y-young
You know we're superstars
We are who we are

DJ turn it up-up-up-up-up-up-up
DJ turn it up-up-up-up-up-up-up
DJ turn it up-up-up-up-up-up-up
DJ turn it up-up-up-up-up-up-up

Tonight we're going har-har-har-har-har-hard
Just like the world is our-our-our-our-our-ours
We're tearin' it apar-par-par-par-par-part
You know we're superstars
We are who we are

We're dancing like we're dumb-dumb-du-du-du-dumb
Our bodies go numb-numb-nu-nu-nu-numb
We'll be forever young-young-y-y-y-young
You know we're superstars
We are who we are

The sun is shining and I could feel it's heat, I breathed in the fresh air of outside deeply. I closed my eyes. I felt much younger than I am. I feel like I'm on the verge of snapping. It's just below the surface, but I can feel it, a crack. Freedom.

I unloaded the groceries from the car, let the dog in and served him up some lunch.

I watched the movie clip for Jane Eyer. I read the book in 7th grade. I think I might like to read it again, but I haven't decided.

I'm listening to FALLEN, by Lauren Kate. I'm on Disc 2. I love it. I'm not sure what that means that I love these teen age books, but I do.

Receipts sit on the desk in front of me waiting to be entered. Costco, Target, Albertsons. These are the usuals. Another for Wenatchee Wild Hockey from the game Russ and Brooklynn went on the 18th. I'm glad The Wild won. I don't want to forget to try hot chocolate with a few jr. mints added to the cup. Russ and Brooklynn say it's delish.

Jax will be home in an hour. Brooklynn has swim practice. Logan has a tennis match in East Wenatchee. Russ will be home at 4 and we're going to have dinner with friends at 6. See pictures from their trip to Hawaii. I'm grateful they didn't have to deal with the tsunami or the possible radiation cloud that threatened to disturb them. All was well. I'm so sad for the people of Japan who are living through the nightmare of the quake.

My new favorite word is PETROL. I just like to say it. Russ is watching Survivors (BBC America). I love the way they talk. I do not like how it's so horrific that I can't stop watching. Sometimes I go read instead, but I often hear a scream or panicked voices and have to go find out what has happened.

I'm looking forward to reading chapter 8 of Matched by Ally Condie tonight with Brooklynn. Last night, we cried through chapter 7. It's a horrible thing to already be crying at page 72. Brooklynn asked what an inoculation was. I told her that today we just call them "shots". "So I go to the doctors for inoculations?" "That is correct."

jax

2011-01-29T15:41:00.000-08:00

He melts my heart...unequivocally I am amazed by his generosity and unconditional love. The girl that gets his heart will be spoiled beyond measure. I am so grateful for the fun and joy he brings into my life. My mother calls him Professor Jaxsen, he is always thinking, always creating in his mind, always using very big words. He's an inventor and a perfectionist, but more importantly he's my son. I love you Jax Man!

oms basketball

2011-01-28T21:17:00.000-08:00

She's trying her hand at basketball this year. Isn't she darling? Her courage and ability to put herself out there amazes me. This Sunday she's speaking in church on service. She's writing her talk all by herself and doing a very good job. Finding her speaking style. She's throwing in a little Star Trek which is sure to take her talk where no man has gone before. I am so thankful for her, so thankful for each of my children. So, to you my darling girl, you are AWESOME!

The Team

meeting Clint Black

2010-12-21T20:40:00.000-08:00

I've never been to a concert, ever, in my life! I'm not a big fan of country music, but I do have an appreciation for it. Russ and I had the opportunity to attend Clint's concert in Wenatchee when we won tickets from, our local radio station, Apple FM. We got to meet him too. Clint's a nice guy and it was fun getting to shake his hand and pose with him for the camera. My favorite songs were Like the Rain and When I Said I Do. His wife, Lisa Hartman Black couldn't be with us, but she would have been proud :D I loved, loved, loved, loved the way that man goes to town on the harmonica and, as always, whenever a violin gets together with an electric guitar I find myself just a little bit happier than I was seconds before.

i believe

2010-12-02T10:18:00.000-08:00

When I was a little girl my mother had a Christmas album, by Elvis Presley, she would put on our turntable and play every Christmas season. About the time I was eight years old the words of this song, I believe, penetrated my soul so deeply, but I could not yet express in words the depths of my feelings. I'd listen to it over and over and have myself the best cry. Today, I've been placing various Nativities in each room of our home and I thought of this song and what I can do to express my beliefs through my actions. When I found this video I was amazed at how well they put my eight year old thoughts into pictures and I realized what I want to give.

The knowledge that I know He lives, I know He loves us beyond our ability to comprehend, I know He is kind, gentle, compassionate, forgiving. I know someday we will feel His arms around us and feel whole. May we each be a candlelight in the storm of life for another, may we each look for opportunities to help those who are lost find their way, may we be the answer to anothers prayers, may we be angels of mercy to the down trodden, may we see the gifts we've been given, may we rejoice in our opportunity to lift another and see in them their divinity. May we all feel more intensely, share openly, and love unconditionally. May we all believe.

9/11

2010-09-11T19:26:00.000-07:00

I turned on the TV early, the kids were all asleep; I saw the towers blazing and heard the announcer as he was midway through his report. I scanned the screen searching for authenticity that it was "actual" news, that I hadn't tuned into a movie. I flipped through channels, it was on every station. As the reality set in, time froze, I kept saying, "This is real, this is real." I felt the hot trickle of salty water drip down my face, I put my hand over my heart and said in a ghost of a whisper, "Father, help them, please don't let them suffer."

I watched all day...for the days that followed. I cried buckets and cried some more. I wanted to do something, I prayed. For the injured, the missing, the dead, and those left behind that would have to go on without them. America was forever changed, and so was I.

On this day, I remember, I remember the inhumanity of those who could commit such an atrocity.
The self-less courage of our heroes who tried to save the children, women, and men who fell victim in such a horrific manner and I pray for those families and loved ones that do not going a day without thinking of that dreadful day. May our Lord and Savior be with you, comfort you, and bring peace to your soul.

me eating pie

2010-08-03T18:47:00.000-07:00

So I was taking picts for my blog post at In the Dixon Kitchen and my darling daughter offered to take photos of me taking a bite of the Pioneer Woman's Raspberry Cream Pie. At first I said, "Ummm, that's okay B I just want a picture of the food, not me eating it." Then, I thought, "She's all excited to take my picture. I never have my picture taken. I should have some pictures of myself." Before I could change my mind I blurted, "Okay B, you can take my picture." She was so excited!

She just kept shooting. Seriously, do I always have my thumb up when I eat, or was I subconsciously giving a thumbs up because the pie tasted so delicious?

And, what's up with this one? Oh my goodness, I am rolling on the floor laughing over this one! Because I know you're wondering, YES, there is a snapshot of me chewing away, devouring this mouthful of pie and, NO, you don't get to see it! :D

rs spotlight

2010-07-07T17:35:00.000-07:00

In Relief Society we are spotlighting sisters each month in an effort to help us get to know each other a bit better. I filled out my answers to the questions posed today and thought I'd share them on my blog.

How long have you lived in/how did you end up in Wenatchee?

Russ and I moved to Wenatchee in 1994. We very much enjoy the size of our community and the four season climate.

How did you meet your spouse?

Russ and I met in the Fall of 1990 while working for Kinko's Copies in Provo, Utah. We were both attending BYU. Since I'm not fond of facial hair, and he was sporting a mustache, I didn't give him a romantic thought. Our co-workers thought we would be a great couple and began stating their opinions to each of us privately. The first time Russ asked me out was really an effort to obtain my spare ticket to a work party at Six Flags for his buddies girlfriend. Both our birthdays are in June and we decided we'd treat each other to dinner and a movie. I didn't let him open my car door, 'cause this was not a "date". I was later chastised for this by a mutual married friend of ours. We went through the Mt. Timpanogos Caves a couple weeks later and on the drive home I tried to fix him up with my best roommate. I didn't like that I entertained the thought of holding his hand when they turned out the lights in the cave because he wasn't my type. By this time he had shaved off the mustache and I thought him rather handsome. I liked how he sang to all the songs on the radio and encouraged me to try new things, he never took "no" for an answer and since he wasn't my type I would give whatever it was a go. I remember vividly giving him my consideration, checking off my desired attributes in a husband, and found him lacking only in one thing, he was not an Eagle Scout. Most boys I dated were Eagle Scouts, but were lacking in many other areas. After weighing this out in my mind I let him kiss me on the 4th of July in 1991 and that was that!

What is one goal you’d like to accomplish during your lifetime (Or a goal you have already accomplished)?

One goal I'd like to accomplish is to be known and remembered as a person of good character that has done her duty to God and family well. This will take a lifetime to achieve.

What part of your daily routine do you enjoy most?

I enjoy talking with my children. They are growing up so fast and I find that they help me as much as I help them, sometimes more so. I count them as my dearest friends and my day is never complete without spending time with each of them.

When you have an hour of free time, what do you like to do?

When I have free time I like to try to answer my own questions or find out more about something that peaks my interest. I also very much enjoy a good read.

Decisions

2010-07-06T08:49:00.000-07:00

Just in case you're staring at a pile of photos and memories like I am, wondering which photo book vendor you should go with, I highly recommend taking time to read The Great Photo Book Round-Up Review: Who Makes The Best Photo Books? by Jason Dunn. An amazing read saving all of us newbies from the pains of trying to figure it all out by ourselves while we secretly hope and pray we're not making a mistake. Thank you Jason!

on our way...

2010-07-03T20:27:00.000-07:00

Six months ago we planned a trip to Lake Roosevelt with our good friends the Butcherites. A week ago the Poulsens decided to join us too. We followed the Butcherite's and their boat.

Butcherite Family - Scott, Jen, Taylor, Alan, Jordynn

Poulsen Family - Mikel, Marci, Nessi, Ebbie

The weather was a little dreary, but we knew the forecast and hoped it would turn out to be one of those times when the weatherman got it wrong...

Isn't the landscape incredible? So majestic, so beautiful...

Bet you're wondering where all the camping pictures are, am I right, am I right? Well, as gorgeous as the weather looks it did not cooperate while we were there. That said, while the weather was poor, the company was divine and we look forward to another group venture this time next year.

on our way home...

I loved how blue the sky was, the brown of the earth...

the rolling hills...

the way the boat looks as if it's going to take flight...

the way the rocks cut into the sky...

and levels at the next bend...

the brilliant green against the blue...

our valley in sight...

we stopped for fresh fruit smoothies here, and Jaxsen begs for one every other day.

project wednesday

2010-06-09T23:51:00.000-07:00

Jen went on a field trip today with her darling boy which left me alone with all those piles hanging out in my bedroom. I stumbled across Kristen Rutten, who I now love like a sister. She recently posted Summer Project 2010: School Year Album which was an absolute answer to my woes of yesterday. About 3 minutes later I ran across Stephanie Meyer's The Second Short Life of Bree Tanner. She's offering a free online read here. Of course. I started reading it and of course I could see my project was drifting away, so I did the only possible thing I could, I negotiated a deal with myself. As soon as all the school papers are properly sorted by child and grade I can read Bree Tanner's story. I told myself I'd take that deal, closed up the laptop and made my way to Walmart for some brown, 10x13, envelopes.

Three hours later I was on my way to feeling so much less overwhelmed. All those neatly marked brown envelopes in one tote. I threw quite a bit away, stored their art in an oversized satchel, and tomorrow I will make a sweep of the downstairs closet to make sure I have it all. After that, I can grab an envelope while watching TV and downsize. Discarding is never a one time process for me; I'll probably go through each envelope two or three times before they're twiddled down to where they should be. Tonight, the kids and I flipped through some of their favorite stories and pieces of art. I laughed so hard Brooklynn kept saying, "Mom, breathe; Breathe mom, breathe!"

Tomorrow's reading reward will be well earned, but I may renegotiate with myself a bit more progress before each chapter. We shall see.

help

2010-06-08T11:55:00.000-07:00

I'm trying to figure out what to do with all the papers, report cards, holiday cards, art etc. that have been accumulating in my bedroom for years. I refuse to purchase one more tote to hold them 'til I get it figured out which means paper piles have surfaced and are lining my window bench. Not good for a person who can't stand clutter. Also, amongst these papers are thoughts and feelings randomly jotted down on paper, church programs, paint chips (yes, paint chips) of things I intended to blog about. It's really pretty funny, but yet a bit overwhelming to the person who has to deal with them. Here's a small visual of what I'm talking about ...

and

what's perhaps even funnier is that a few weeks ago these picts were taken in my dining room where I moved everything so I could utilize the dining room table. Last night we had friends for dinner. I relocated everything back to my room, but stubbornly refused to slide any of it under my bed. I'm issuing a cry for HELP, I'm being held prisoner by this stuff! I think a large portion of my problem is just deciding what to do with it. I'd like to digitize everything in case of fire, put it somewhere on the web, maybe picasa? I'd like to make digital books, but also feel obligated to use the originals and not discard them. I'd like each child to easily have access to things that pertain to their lives. Today, I think I shall sort. I'm just not sure how. And what about all the cards? You know the ones, every birthday card your child has ever received from family and friends. What about the cards between husband and wife? Sometimes, I really need to reread the proclamations of love contained therein, should I compile a book about that? Take a picture of the card and the writing and then toss the actual object? Albums are bulky and I'm hoping there's a lot more cards in my future, but I don't want to dedicate an entire bookshelf to them.

With all that I don't know, with all that I am uncertain of, this I do know: Stuff, even the good stuff, can clutter our lives if it's not properly organized. Thoughts of, "I'm going to..." takes energy and strength none of us can afford to give away, and it all costs us time and loss of focus preventing us from moving forward and becoming who we're meant to become.

12of12 {February}

2010-02-12T22:36:00.000-08:00

Purchases made at Costco, love that place!
Logan's venture to ask for donations for his Eagle Scout Project.
Logan seeks approval and a signature from Mark Beler, BSA Council Leader.
Wenatchee street art on the steps of the museum.
Tiny sprinkles of rain on a grey day.
In love with this bronze.
An Eagle above the museum doors, fitting.
There's something about architectual elements I adore.
Shauna Lee, writing her RS lesson, after a dinner of chicken noodle soup over mashed potatoes. Perfect for a little lady with a sore throat and sniffles. {Get well Shauna, love you!}
Russ watching Survivor.
Brooklynn watching Survivor.
Jax being told NOT to run the remote control by his Survivor watching, older, brother (who remains incognito). Sad face.

I spent most of the day in the car, running errands, and trying not to embarrass my oldest son as I pulled out my camera. It's a good thing our Sienna has tinted windows. I really love how 12 of 12 pushes me to do something out of the ordinary and a little uncomfortable. People notice when you whip out a camera in Wenatchee, and I'm sure they wonder what the heck I'm doing. Now, if I could just get my family to not care that people they don't know (and some they do) are looking their direction...any suggestions?

cards, math, and puppets

2010-02-10T21:28:00.000-08:00

Valentines Day is Sunday and there is no school on Friday.

She wanted to make sure her friends got a little something special from her.

Each friend is unique, just like their card.

She asked me to choose a 'favorite'. I couldn't do it. I love them all. I love that she needs no pattern, no guide. She plays with the paper and ink and she creates what she feels. She's not afraid to experiment. She's not afraid of making a 'mistake'. When she finished she told me, "I don't have a favorite. I don't think a true artist can choose a favorite. Each piece means something special to them for different reasons."

Math homework, multiplication.

He's a Webelo. The Blue & Gold Banquet is next week and they're putting on a puppet show. This wooden spoon will be a scout by Thursday (we hope).

You might have noticed the oldest child is missing. He doesn't like his picture taken. I decided to leave him alone tonight, but not forever.

project wednesday {loose ends}

2010-02-10T17:04:00.000-08:00

We added these Forever Flowers to the 5x5 cards we made two weeks ago.

In the center we placed a Colorbok Clear Rhinestone from Target.

Aren't they darling?

We had homemade potato soup for lunch with a salad. We surfed the internet for charms to complete our other card. We did have some luck finding exactly what we needed on ebay, but the seller is out of the United Kingdom. Since neither of us are familiar with their monetary system it seems we may need to email the seller and ask some ???. I would have never guessed metal charms would be 'out' so to speak. We chose next weeks project. Jen made this card for one of my birthdays.

What makes it extra special is how it opens...

Cute, huh?

brooklynn's math is cool adventure

2010-02-05T21:02:00.000-08:00

I got a call this afternoon from my darling daughter, Brooklynn. The call went something like this:

"Mom, I tried to call you at home."
"I'm not at home."
"I know. I left you two messages. The first one says I would like to stay after school for Math is Cool."
"That's GREAT!"
"The second one says I don't want to stay."
"Oh, why not? You should do it if you really want to."
"I'm scared."
"You're scared? You'll do great."
"They need two more people so they won't lose points. Okay, well I'll stay. It might be fun and I don't have to do the competitions. It's from 3p.m. to 8 p.m. Dinner is at 6 p.m. Can you bring me dinner, maybe a sandwich or some cheese pizza?"
"3-8 p.m. Not every night though, right?"
"Right."
"Ummm, yes, I can bring you dinner."
"Great!"

After we hung up and I was heading home I reflected on Logan's Math is Cool adventure. 3 p.m. to 8 p.m., 3 p.m. to 8 p.m., 3 p.m. to 8 p.m....dinner...'they need two more people so they won't lose points' oh my goodness this isn't just a Math is Cool meeting this is a COMPETITION! She's definitely going to have to compete. Hmmm....

Logan and I showed up at 5 minutes to 6 p.m. with a hot cheese pizza. I have never seen Brooklynn looking so tired and overwhelmed. Sixty groups competing to go to state. Competing against kids who have been training for months, kids who love math, kids who are in algebra.

"How's it going' B?"
"I am so tired and hungry."
"We brought cheese pizza."
{2 slices later}
"Mom, I'm still hungry."
"Well, have another piece. We can toss what you don't eat."
She finished off that third piece which is amazing because usually she just eats one. She buried her head in her hands and I put my arm around her. She looked up at me, tear filled eyes, looking exhausted.
"Do you know how to solve any of the problems?"
"Not really and I'm embarrassed I had to tell my team that."
"Well, you have a lot of courage, they know you're here so they have enough competitors."
"I know. I wish I could go home, but I can't. I gotta go."

I watched her walk away as I said a silent prayer on her behalf. When we picked her up at 8:30 p.m. she was holding a giant yellow ribbon in her hand. She looked tired, but happy. Orchard Middle School took 4th place and are sending four students to state. The other two middle schools, in our area, didn't place. Way to go Brooklynn, way to go OMS! We went to Wendy's and had Root-beer Frosty Floats, she smiled and giggled. Her ability to try, to take risks, to do the hard thing, constantly amazes me...I am soooo proud of her.